Merry-Go-Round

Well here we go again. We are about to start fertility treatments again. I'm not sure if I am excited, terrified, annoyed or apathetic or all of the above. I am tired of the maybe I am maybe I'm not crap that happens every month. I am not sure if I can take the disappointment again and again and again every month. I want a baby so bad I'm just so tired of the disappointment and heartache of not being able to conceive. The thing I want most in this world is to have a baby. But it never seems like it will ever happen. I am so nervous about what might happen at the appointment tomorrow. I have to be there for 2-2 1/2 hours i am really nervous that they might find something else wrong with me or That everything will get worse or that I will find out that we will never be able to have kids. I just hope that everything will work out. That even though it may be hard that I will have the strength to keep doing the treatments when faced with nothing but disappointment. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers. Anna and Aaron