Adam and Bean!

Well its been a really busy few months.

Adam is now crawling and getting into everything. It is more like and inch worm low-crawling in the floor but he is a fast little tyke. He has decided that he no longer wants to be held he wants to be on the floor where ever we are seeing how things works. Another of his great loves at the moment is mom and dads food doesn't matter what we are eating he wants it too. in fact I had just fed him when he was Aaron eating a salad with a pork fillet and garlic rice and he started screaming until he got some of the rice to eat too. It has made meal times that much more interesting.

Still no teeth but I have hopes that one will show up before he turns 1. I know I shouldn't compare him to other babies but sometimes I can't help it. All of my friends and families new babies (which are YOUNGER! than Adam) have teeth already and while I know he is perfectly normal I can't help but wonder if something is wrong that is making it hard for his teeth to come through. He is also the smallest one out of the group and sometimes I wonder if it is because he was early and had some breathing problems. Then I remember that Aaron was a small baby and Adam is a lot bigger than he was at this age. He is just normal not too big or too small. He is really long though he was 26 inches 2 months ago at his 6 month check-up. so I have a long skinny baby! I should have made him a string bean for halloween instead of a monkey. :D

The new baby is growing fast and other than being sore around my stomach I have been feeling great. Aaron and I have decided to nickname this baby Bean because Adam was a peanut and this one looks like a bean in my first ultrasound.

I went to the Dr on the 18th only to find out I was barely 2 months pregnant so I went again yesterday and WOW! the baby is huge comapred to how big is was 4 weeks ago. I forgot how quickly they grow. My offical due date is JULY 7, 2011! I am so excited if I have this one early too I could have a 4th of July baby or even add to the birthdays on the 1st of july in my family!

Well so far so goo I am not showing yet but I definetly can tell that I am pregnant I hate jeans around my stomach and I love to sleep again. Adam is a joy to watch grow right before my eyes, and speaking of that joy I need to go see what he is growling at. Keep you updated as I get farther along I hope to post some new pics of Adam and Bean soon.

Anna

Miracles!

This year has been full of miracles for our little family.

If you have been following this blog you know what a struggle it has been for us to have kids. We were told that we would have a 2% chance of ever conceiving a child with medical help. Well we beat the odds when we found out we were pregnant with our son.

We have been given the best miracle this year in the form of our son Adam. He has been an absolute joy to have around.

While we had beaten the odds for having our son, we figured that it would be a few years before we could get pregnant again if ever but we were still being careful just in case.

We have just gotten another miracle this year. On Halloween Sunday we found out we are PREGNANT again!!!!! :D

I am due in June 2011 not sure the date yet but I have my first dr's appointment on the 18th so I can get a better idea then. We are so excited to be bringing another child into our family.

Yes you can get pregnant on birth control! I am that proof.

I realize that this is a little close to my son's birthday but I am just so happy to have to opportunity to have another baby that as long as he or she is healthy, I don't care how close to Adam's birthday he or she is born.

We weren't planning on having a baby this soon after Adam was born. I am not about to turn down another miracle baby.

I'll keep you posted as I go from a mom of one to a mom of two!

Crazy new life

Wow

So life has been really exciting this last year.

We moved back to Utah and we love it out here but Aaron may be going to work in Wyoming we are still trying to figure that out.

But I digress we moved back to Utah on December 5,2009 and were able to get everything moved in and for the most part unpacked. We were blessed to be able to get our endowments on December 19, 2009 exactly 4 years and a month to the day we were married!

For my Christmas present this last year my husband and I were sealed to each other for time and all eternity on December 23, 2009

I will never forget the peace and love I felt that day in the temple as I looked at my husband across the alter and listen to the blessing we received.

I bet you are asking what happened to the baby? well we found out that we were having a BOY!

and we were ecstatic! I had a very normal pregnancy I only got sick twice but the first time it was a extreme migraine and I had to go to the ER and I threw up a few hours after g

etting the pain medicine so I don't count that one and the other time I had HORRIBLE pain in my side that required and ultrasound and 6 HOURS in the ER they would have released me earlier but I wouldn't stop throwing up because of the pain and then the medicine so I don't really count that either.

I did have some spotting at 26 weeks but they decided that it was nothing after having me at Labor and Delivery for 4 hours just to make sure. we never did find out what it was.

You may already hate me but get ready for more.... ;D I didn't really gain weight till about 7 months then I gained about 25 at what seemed like overnight. At 36 weeks I was having A LOT of swelling in my legs so I was in the Dr's office about every other day getting checked out. Well at 38 weeks and 5 days the Dr decided that I was getting preeclampsia and that it was time to start me so at 10:30 am on April 8th I arrived at the hospital and was checked in and was given a room and give one of those "lovely" nightgowns. about 11:30 is when they finally had me hooked up to the pitocin to get things started I was at a 3 and 90% effaced so I was thinking this could take a while and everyone was telling that the contractions KILLED with pitocin but I really didn't feel anything till about 5 or 6 pm that night. This whole time I was alone in my room as Aaron was off doing his own thing as usual. At 3 pm my Dr came in and decided to break my water thinking it would speed things up because I was only about a 5 but I was 100% effaced but I think it slowed it down. By 5pm the contractions really let me know that they were there and they hit with a vengeance. I requested some pain meds so I could sleep I only asked for half a dose because it

only last an hour so I spread it out some. By 6 pm the pain meds were not letting me sleep so I requested a Epidural and my anesthesiologist was amazing the only thing I felt was his finger nail marking my back. I was a weird one apparently because I could still move my legs and I could still feel pressure if someone pushed on my leg but other than that I was numb. Well at 7 they checked me and I was at an 7 and something at 8 pm at 9 pm I was a 9 and 1/2 so they came and checked me at 10 ans I was complete so they started getting the room ready.

I had the best nurses ever. My day nurse was named Carol and my nurse who actually helped me deliver was Besty.

I loved my nurse she knew exactly what to do. So at 10:30 they room is ready and they have me start pushing and at 11pm she called the Dr to tell him I am about to crown so he needed to get there fast. well they had me stop pushing at this point and my epidural had worn OFF!

Needless to say I not happy when 20 minutes later and the Dr was not there and the baby's head was out to his NOSE! Besty had called in a Nurse practitioner to come catch the baby. I remember her calling her in telling her.. The Dr's not going to make it in time.. well as she was gowning up in walks the Dr. he asks if I have an epidural and they tell him yes but it was worn off and he tells them to push the button! I don't think so!

I am panting and ready to cry and he finally comes over and has me push hal

f a push and the baby's head came out. after he gets his nose cleaned out he has me do half a push again and he is completely out!!! But the Dr. almost dropped him because he was so slippery. So he had little bruises on his thighs for about a weeks and a HUGE bruise on his head and it was slightly coned from having to sit at the entrance for 20 minutes.

Our beautiful Baby Boy was born at 11:24pm on April 8,2010. He weighed in at 7lbs 10 ounces

and 20 1/2 inches long!

We named our little miracle Adam Aaron Robison.

He had to spend 2 days in the NICU. he had some trouble breathing and eating at the same time but after having some oxygen for a while he was just fine, the Dr just wanted to make sure he wasn't sick.

We brought our beautiful miracle home on Sunday April 11,2010

Since then it has been one joyous adventure and discovery after another.

4 months down 5 more to go.

Well here we are at the end of the 4th month. still don't know what we are having and the baby is making it hard to guess. Some days I think that it is a boy and other days it seems like a very stubborn little girl. :D

We find out what we are having on November 30,2009 I can't wait to find out what we are having.

A couple days after that we will be moving back to Utah. Aaron is getting out of the Army and going back to school to get his professional pilot licence and degree in aviation. We are gonna be living in Logan by both our parents.

I can't wait to be home with our families.

Due date is April 20,2010

pray for us we need all the help we can get.

Thanks

Love you all

Anna

Finally

FINALLY WE ARE FINALLY PREGNANT!!!! We are due March 24,2010!!!!!

Fighting the Nights

it days like today that I think. Wow it's nice not having kids yet.

I don't have to run to daycare after work to pick them up and I can still pretty much go and do what I want when I want. Have money to spend on me. Not having to worry about homework or diapers.

I don't have to worry about the days they are easy. I am too busy to focus on wanting kids during the day. Working at a daycare helps too. I think it helps keep me centered on what i need to improve on before I become a mother. I can tell I have already grown and learned a lot.

It's the nights that are the hardest. When everything is calm and quiet the house settling and the dog and cat wandering around the house one last time.

It's at this time that the worry and doubt and the melancholy set in. It's at this time that the nagging voice in my head comes back.... Will I ever get pregnant? ...... what if the dr is right and it will never happen? What if I do get pregnant? will I miscarry? will I be ready? How will I tell Aaron?? What am I going to do? What if God doesn't want me to get pregnant? What if I am not worthy enough to get pregnant? Will the pressure for the 1st Robison grandchild ever go away or will it get worse the longer i'm not pregnant? Why is it that while i have been trying for 4 yrs that i can't get pregnant and yet everyone around me is getting pregnant just by looking at them wrong?

It's the nights when the cosmic design doesn't really seem all that fair I mean druggies and hookers get pregnant with kids they don't want. Teen parents. People who would rather have an abortion then gain 10 lbs. Why do they get pregnant with no problem but I who doesn't drink smoke do drugs have a regular paying job a safe and secure home and love and WANT kids have 0 to NO chance of getting pregnant.

It's the nights when I struggle to remember that God Loves me and wants me to be a mother.

It's the nights when my husband is sleeping so peaceful next to me that I want to cry but can't for fear of waking him up.

I dread nights they are no longer restful times for me but times where I have to fight to stay out of that hole.

I hope i still have enough strength to get out

Baby Update.

We got the results of out fertility tests. Its not looking good. I apparently don't ovulate. I have some hormones for it but I don't have enough. So they have out me on 3 different kinds of vitamins to see if that helps and aspirin to see if it will help the blood flow better and get the vitamins where they are needed. on top of that I have 4 different injections that I have to do through out the month. All Aaron needs is some vitamins. It is just getting so frustrating We get so close and then WHAM!!! something happens and throws us back a mile. its like 2 steps forward 10 steps back. I am so sick and tired of it never working. I just want one day where things come together. I am so scared that this won't work. If everything works perfectly and I mean perfectly I still only have a 10% chance of getting pregnant. I have this voice in my head that keeps telling me that it won't work. That I will never be good enough to conceive a child. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. We need all the help we can get. Thanks Anna